To Arrive, Like the Lily, At Will

Victory. It has come late, I had not learnt how to arrive, like the lily, at will, the white figure, that pierces the motionless eternity of earth, pushing at clear, faint, form, till the hour strikes: that clay, with a white ray, or a spur of milk. Shedding of clothing, the thick darkness of soil, …

how did I ever fade into this life…

On nights like this, I don't want to sleep. I don't know if it's a visceral reaction from my teenage years, or if it's from staying up until 4:30 am after watching my sisters be murdered. Trying to avoid nightmares. I took my first drink at 16 when I was staying up late to avoid …