dancing with the unknown

Sometimes I curl up in the dark night, wrap myself up with my own arms, and whisper lonesome-ly... "What do you want, baby girl?" I stare into the darkness and wish it could stare back. In the way that the roots stare at the dirt, willing the nutrients to budge from those grains up into …

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Object Lessons

 I can tend to compulsively manage my life. I do this in three areas especially: finances, recovery, and school. If you've been reading this blog for a couple months, you know about the financial stress I put myself under. Each thing has its place, and each place has its thing. As I told my therapist …

Rhythms

The past 2 days have been "down days" for me. I've been trying to keep track of when I feel depressed, to get an idea if there's a rhythm or flow to it. It seemed to have more of a PMDD feel to it; but this isn't PMDD. I'm wondering if it cycles every 2 …