Controlling Perfect

I was standing in the frozen vegetable aisle, unseeing. Instead of looking through the glass doors at green beans, peas, spinach – I was looking at the glass doors and the mirror of myself. An argument was waging in my head; not about what vegetables to buy, but about the items I held in my …

Rhythms

The past 2 days have been "down days" for me. I've been trying to keep track of when I feel depressed, to get an idea if there's a rhythm or flow to it. It seemed to have more of a PMDD feel to it; but this isn't PMDD. I'm wondering if it cycles every 2 …

Panic Switch

Ever have that moment where you react to something before taking enough space to really consider it? I have. In fact it happens quite often for me. Panic crawls up my throat and out of my mouth before I can stop it. And in the face of panic, I babble and become unclear.There are few …

Beyond Ideas

          Since the weekend after the Boston Marathon, I’ve been under a gray cloud. Not a dark one, full of lightning and thunder and ominous promises, but a gray one, like a persistent winter in the northwest where the sun just can’t push its way past. I would diagnose my feelings …