Let’s Talk… About Gun Control

I’ve heard so many stories in the past 2 weeks. Stories that I am honored to carry, and that you can go read in the comments of my blog. I’ve had amazing conversations with people I would have called “the enemy”, had I continued to react out of pain.

At this point, that means much more to me than being right. I don’t want to be on the “right” side of this discussion. I want to truly meet people and hear their heart. … More Let’s Talk… About Gun Control

Dear Congress – Sincerely, A Mass Shooting Survivor

I write you this letter so that you can see the face of a survivor. I write you this letter as someone who saw with my own eyes the horror of a mass shooting, a shooting that took the lives of my twin and younger sisters and injured my father in December 2007. And most importantly I write this letter to open a dialogue about the role that gun violence has played in our country. … More Dear Congress – Sincerely, A Mass Shooting Survivor

It’s Complicated

When I tell people about my relationship with my dad now, sometimes they’re surprised. For one, I still talk to him. A lot of people think this is weird. I think… yes… but he’s my dad. I do, however, have certain boundaries for conversations with my dad. The number one boundary I hold is that we … More It’s Complicated

Violence Doesn’t Solve Fear

The ways in which we approach our fear has got to change.

It is so very very easy to approach fear with the mindset of wiping it off the face of the map, whether it be with drone strikes or with pointing a gun at innocent teenagers. It’s so very very easy for me to approach fear with self-policing, obsessive thinking, and trying to eradicate it from my mind. Do they seem disconnected to you? They are very related. Outer change never comes without inner change, first. … More Violence Doesn’t Solve Fear

Story of a Homeschooler

I’m telling this story to add it to the other voices now speaking up about homeschooling. I’m telling this story because I think it’s important. I’m telling this story so maybe someday soon, the government or SOMEONE can hold homeschool parents accountable. Why? Because in a fishbowl, isolated from the ocean, it’s far too easy to keep things secret. Things like 1.7 billion dollar delusions. Or, in the Duggar family, molesting 5 young girls. Accountability is needed. … More Story of a Homeschooler

Silence

My mind is a clamoring crowd at a football game (either kind of football, take your pick) screaming for the other side to win. I am learning that silence is when the real game begins. This weekend overall and yesterday, in particular, was a gut-wrenching hole of anxiety. I was more in my Witness consciousness than … More Silence

An Announcement!

As you may have noticed, I’ve been using tarot cards in these posts for a few months now. My Osho Zen deck is something that is very inspiring to me, and has given me rich material for my personal spiritual path. But from the first moment I held that deck in my hands, I knew … More An Announcement!

Ripeness

Tonight, my soul was a little tired. I’ve been wanting to do a reading to start off my next season here on this little online space of mine. To make it sacred, if you will. But in this reading I first intended to reach out for words to soothe my soul. With my candle lit … More Ripeness

Can Be Both, And

“You’re toeing a line Something real or something divine There’s no need to choose Can be both and.” -The Jezabels, Deep Wide Ocean Real: 1:  of or relating to fixed, permanent, or immovable things (as lands or tenements) 2 a  :  not artificial, fraudulent, or illusory :  genuine;  also  :  being precisely what the name implies  b (1)  … More Can Be Both, And

Growing Pains

I don certain perspectives with ease. They’re like sunglasses in the sense that they block out certain spectrums of light. Like that one pair of sunglasses that you hate that makes everything look brown. It’s easy to see life as shit-colored. Sometimes I wear my sunglasses at night. That makes it even more difficult. I … More Growing Pains

Twilight

Knowing sacred places in the shadows, I come to a new understanding of them. When I approach them in the blue January twilight, instead of the blazing June sun, I see things a little bit differently. I walked this trail in June, on June 29th to be exact. I have walked it since then. Once in fall. Now … More Twilight

Finding Ground

Back in February/March, I went to Sayulita, Mexico, and found myself as I have never done before. I went alone. As such, I was required to make my own self care an absolute priority, down to what I ate. While there, I encountered regular thoughts of self-hatred, regular condemnation for the lack of yoga I … More Finding Ground

Practice

It’s been awhile since I wrote. Some of this is due to the places my mind has wandered lately, down dark and lonely roads. But some of this is also due to being out of practice. My honesty has felt terrifying even to me, so I stopped practicing writing it out publicly and went underground. … More Practice

Dust to Dust

Last weekend, I started a yoga teacher training program. A friend had told me about this program just about a month and a half ago. When she emailed me about it, I instantly KNEW. I needed to do this. I had no idea why. I had no idea where I’d get the money from. But, … More Dust to Dust

Just Dance: A Poem

I’m posting over at The Sisterwives today, with a new spoken word piece. It’s all about dancing to the rhythm of your own truth. Read here! Just Dance

I’m Still Here

It’s been awhile since I’ve written. Most of what I’ve written lately has been sporadic pennings on a journal page, or in my poetry notebook. I’ve zipped myself shut for the silliest of reasons, but one I could not avoid. A monster in my closet with a double-fisted threat that steals all my breath and … More I’m Still Here

Breakthrough

Last night I decided to give my new tarot deck one more round of “let’s see what it comes up with” before bed. For those of you who don’t follow my Twitter, I’ve been obsessed with tarot card reading lately. And by lately I mostly mean the last 3 days since I bought this deck … More Breakthrough

Legacy

We’re not up for that. The countless times I heard that phrase as a child. It started with disinterest. It became a lack of time. It became a lack of motivation. It became a lack of energy. It was too hard to interact with the world, to interact with life, to interact with others. So … More Legacy

Wolves

I’ve been absolutely outraged by Ferguson and the events there, and this is what came out tonight. I felt compelled to share it with you. Excuse my stumbling words; please know that I don’t know how to write about this. But I’m trying. I recognize my own privilege and the role that it plays in … More Wolves

Return

I have another post coming soon, and this post will likely be a bit raw. But I felt the need to share it tonight. This evening, I’ve been thinking about the words “come with me” and “return.” I hear them not only in English but in Spanish… “Conmigo. Volvere.” These words have been bouncing around in … More Return

Life-Hacking Skills

It is widely known among my friends that I do not, in fact, own a smartphone. Yes, I know, it’s quite the tragedy. As they have assured me many times. How do I get along without it? How do I live without a portable camera and Instagram filters? How do I know where anything is? … More Life-Hacking Skills

Constellations

“It seems we struggle for a lifetime to become whole. Few of us ever do … Most of us end up going out the same way we came in — kicking and screaming. Most of us don’t have the strength — or the conviction. Most of us don’t want to face our fears.” ― Darren Aronofsky; … More Constellations